I have been set spiraling. It's just an observation, just a curious case of introspection and dissection and, yes, a whole lot of rumination . What is it that can cause this feeling of just not being so together anymore? So...complicated and so...pathetic that I am, here I go trying to figure it out. Perhaps it is my FANTASY life thinking that it is my REALITY life...God don't you hate when that happens? You are going along , la-di-da-ing, when something 'real' sucker punches you. I know I am not being clear here but I am just a jumbled up mess of contradictions and nonsense today. I feel like I am in bits and pieces, scattered here and there. Broken things that need fixing. Is there anyone out there?