Friday, 11 September 2009

I'll be Your Lullaby

Yesterday was a monumental day for me. I did something I haven't done for 8 months and 2 weeks. I went on my first solo street run since Cowgirl died. I have to say it was wonderful. I thought of her the entire time but I didn't cry at all. Of course, the stellar beauty of the day helped -- picture perfect sky, cool fall temp, lovely scenery. When I got to the lakeside beach where she normally would have gone in swimming, I just lay on the dock basking in the sun and feeling happy, truly happy that we had had our exceptional life together. When I think back, I am pleased to report that we did it with so much love and joy and we were so, so 'sympatico'. We had the luxury of lives joined at the hip and full to bursting. It was a good run, in more ways than one.

4 comments:

ingrid said...

That's a wonderful story and picture.
I love those moments. Those moments when you can feel just how perfect everything was and how beautiful your relationship was.
Thank your for sharing.

Mareike said...

I am so happy that you are at peace with things ... that you were able to enjoy the day. It's something I am looking forward to one day as well.

Thank you for giving me hope :)

Dog By Nature said...

It takes a long time for our hearts to heal from such a huge loss but it's those wonderful memories of time well spent together that make it easier to bare and eventually is the part that remains the clearest.

Cowgirl said...

Thanks to all of you for understanding. It means so much to me.