Sunday 22 June 2008

Ruminating, In General

Let's just ruminate a little. I have been noticing lately, well, actually all the time, that it is difficult to relate to others 'in the moment' as opposed to dredging up the past. Is it our pasts that define us? Are we nothing more or less than what we have already done? I am thinking that there would be very little relating going on if, indeed, we were all 'in the moment' (for instance, this post). There would be absolutely NOTHING to talk about. Perhaps we would all be staring, deeply into each others eyes and asking the most inane question...'what are you thinking?'. There has been a time or two when I was asked that question and honestly, I had to make something up. If truth be told, I was ruminating about frivolous and trivial items on my to-do list or some such nonsense. I think I am embracing my superficiality. A friend once told me (see, I am dredging up the past even now), that " most of us live pretty unremarkable lives" and you know, that made so much sense to me and gave me such a feeling of relief.

Sunday 15 June 2008

Indulge Me -- I'm Having a Moment

Sweet Mexican Dog

Do you think that sometimes you are being tested? That sometimes life throws a lot of things at you all at the same time in a kind of cruel way? I know that some people believe that we are being tested by 'god' or their version of 'god' and it gives them comfort to know that they won't get more than they can handle. Well, that doesn't work for me. I think that people get way more than they can handle all the time. It feels like this is one of those times. It happened slowly, one thing, one day at a time and before I knew it -- sucker punched! All the psychological games that are supposed to work, don't. Does everyone go through this? Is it just a luxury that those of us living with abundance have? Or is it just simply, chemical? I think we are all just a mess of troubles that vary in degrees according to where we live in the world. Yeah, this is self-centered crappy indulgence. We're all in the same boat and that should be some comfort...right?

Sunday 8 June 2008

The Elusive Shallot

I really, really wanted to plant shallots this year as I have come to appreciate them so much in my cooking. Never did I ever, even consider, that I would not be able to find one single shallot bulb in this entire town. I confess, after just spending 2+ months in Southern California, I had forgotten that things are just a little different when one lives in a small town in the interior of British Columbia. I was chastised for being at least a week too late by all the garden suppliers I went to. Next year, I will be on it like white on rice, like a moth to the flame, like black on blue, like spots on the dog, like stripes on socks, like plaid on shorts...

Thursday 5 June 2008

Home Sweet Home

Well my dear ones, I really do think that the grass is greener here and it was so worth it to hop that fence. It's not just my rose-colored glasses either. Why just today on a long and winding ride out through the valley I really looked around and man'o'man it was GREEN.
It is still just so hard to believe that this is now home when just a short time ago it was just a place to pass through and fantasize about. Have you ever been somewhere and thought 'gee, what would it be like to live here?'. Well fast forward to now and pinch me.

Tuesday 3 June 2008

I Could Drink A Case of You...

Okay, it has been a few days...but puleeezz...allow me to 'splain myself. Well, we successfully 'landed' which just means that the Canadian border was crossed and we were welcomed in as new permanent residents. Yippee! It feels good and it feels even better to have that long (boring and frustrating) process behind us. It has been a few days of just getting re-acquainted with things and people here. Canada just feels so right and, you know where I'm going with this, how can it be wrong? Get it? Of course you do! I'm just playing with you. But let us continue on another day to explore this desire for another life, in another place. My mind is going in a million directions right now and I am seeing endless possibilities. Life, as the saying goes, is good.