Wednesday 16 June 2010

Dedicated to the Ones I Love

Some relationships are so fleeting, it seems, and others are so enduring. Some are relatively simple while others are so complicated. The complicated ones are exhausting and doomed to failure while the simple ones just float on and on until one day the inevitable occurs. Sigh. I think about dying almost every night as I am falling asleep...don't worry, it is not an obsessive or morbid ritual. It is just that I want to be 'right' with it or maybe just 'ready ' for it. For me that means really living a life that that fits me well. I am trying to follow a longing that keeps resurfacing on a regular basis and that is to be more and more self-sufficient and simple. Funny, huh, that what I want is so 19th century when you think about it. Yes, I know, what I have now is pretty ideal in many ways, but, this other longing is always back there in the fog. I think it is a longing for freedom just to do, and to be, while I can, on my own little piece of earth. Another of what I like to call 'a true thing'. Not to try to get that true thing would be regret on my part. Regret, seems not to be an option. I miss my 'girl' and I miss a few others that have made this such a good run so far. It's the whole package, really, that is painting this life. There is so much more to do...ride 'em cowgirl.


kevel88 said...

Glad our friendship is enduring!


Joey Boshart said...

That is truly, truly it. Live a simple life, minding your own business, living in a way that others see and wonder, how, just how, you've found your bliss.

I think the death thing is a bit like how I've described falling from a horse. The actual event to the participant isn't really that bad. You certainly don't want it to happen, but the worst part is the anticipation of the event. So, don't think about it. Enjoy the ride. If it happens, when it happens, you will have been having fun until then.

Love you friend... Enjoy the gift of today. It's something you've taught me, so now, back at you. :O)

ingrid said...

too true.
I wish I could break the bondage of everyday life and work and truly enjoy my time on earth. It's so difficult to survive, keep up with the few good relationships that still exist, as well as live life to the fullest.

Two of my favorite quotes:

"There is never enough time to do or say all the things that we would wish. The thing is to try to do as much as you can in the time that you have. Remember Scrooge, time is short, and suddenly, you're not here any more. " - The Ghost of Christmas Present

"Life is a banquet, and most poor suckers are starving to death!" - Auntie Mame.

ah life.